This year has completely changed me. I have found an intimacy with God that I never knew was possible. I have moved deeper into His Presence and He uses me more than every before, and it's not because I seek His gifts, but it's because I seek Him.
I can't wait to go to my home church tomorrow. I can't wait to show the youth kids that they are capable of having an intimacy and being totally swept away by God and live a radical life and change the lives of people around them!
I'm ready for what God has in store tomorrow night.
I also get to spend some time with my family Thursday, Friday, and Saturday morning!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
How far have I come?
Sometimes I feel like I have gotten absolutely nowhere, as if God does something spectacular, and I’m moving in this great intimate relationship with Him quickly, then all of a sudden, a trial comes along. Once the trial comes along I feel like I have gotten absolutely nowhere, even though I’m pressing in harder than ever before.
I know that is not true though. I look back and if I had gone through the situations and trials I am right now a year ago, I wouldn’t have been able to cope with them as well. Yes, I feel like I have a good bit of growing up and maturing to do, but I have come a long way. I still have plenty of lessons to be learned, but I know if I get down to relying on God alone, then I’m going to make it just fine.
I just love God. I don’t even care about what comes up against me, I just love Him.
It still blows me away what all has happened this year in Masters Commission. I started out the year with about a gazillion walls built up, and God surely enough has torn down those walls. God taught me patience and faith through a knee injury, surgery, then a healing process. God corrected me on my calling in life and revealed to me some of what I am going to be doing with my life. I had the opportunity to have a huge burden for a dear friend, which I prayed through, and saw light being shed on the situation. God has used me to speak directly to people that I minister to. I could go on and on. God has done so much for me this year. He has revealed so much to me about the purpose and plans He has for me.
This season right now is definitely not my favorite. Sometimes I just wish I could get away for a day or two and be all by myself. Maybe a nice cozy cabin on a mountain that is far away with a nice grand piano. That sounds extremely nice, but I know God doesn’t have me up on that dream cozy vacation house for a reason! He wants me here right now.
This is definitely more of a ramble, but I know that God has taken me farther than I even knew possible. It's good to evaluate yourself and look back to see how far you have come. That's what gives me faith and hope. I’m sticking to God!
I know that is not true though. I look back and if I had gone through the situations and trials I am right now a year ago, I wouldn’t have been able to cope with them as well. Yes, I feel like I have a good bit of growing up and maturing to do, but I have come a long way. I still have plenty of lessons to be learned, but I know if I get down to relying on God alone, then I’m going to make it just fine.
I just love God. I don’t even care about what comes up against me, I just love Him.
It still blows me away what all has happened this year in Masters Commission. I started out the year with about a gazillion walls built up, and God surely enough has torn down those walls. God taught me patience and faith through a knee injury, surgery, then a healing process. God corrected me on my calling in life and revealed to me some of what I am going to be doing with my life. I had the opportunity to have a huge burden for a dear friend, which I prayed through, and saw light being shed on the situation. God has used me to speak directly to people that I minister to. I could go on and on. God has done so much for me this year. He has revealed so much to me about the purpose and plans He has for me.
This season right now is definitely not my favorite. Sometimes I just wish I could get away for a day or two and be all by myself. Maybe a nice cozy cabin on a mountain that is far away with a nice grand piano. That sounds extremely nice, but I know God doesn’t have me up on that dream cozy vacation house for a reason! He wants me here right now.
This is definitely more of a ramble, but I know that God has taken me farther than I even knew possible. It's good to evaluate yourself and look back to see how far you have come. That's what gives me faith and hope. I’m sticking to God!
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